Green Eyed Monster Part II

I have a feeling that tonight is going to be a rough night. Kerry and Matt are spending the night in either Napa or Monterey - somthing that Kerry and I did quite often - and its been a chance for the Green Eye’d Monster to make another belittling round of torturing my soul (click for full view):

I really dont understand why it disturbs me so much, nor exactly which part. Even if Kerry came crawling back to me I would have serious doubts. Perhaps its not that she isn’t with me, its that she’s happy and I’m not. Bah, I will never understand this part of life.

It feels so much like a stab at me though, since she’ll be leaving in only two weeks for a 2 month vacation. What kind of a relationship could she possibly start in that time?

The thing with Larissa seems to have gone afoul too. I wasn’t able to get ahold of her Sunday and she didn’t seem to think much of it when I talked to her today. Would have been really nice it it worked out, she’s younger, thinner and hot, and who knows it may still. But I’m not holding my breath.